Dream thoughts

Kept waking up out of dream-word-image-thoughts, clutching at my pen and book, and emerged with this:

Against frequencies of velvet backs and hands on collarbones splayed

So much time, the middle world
So much time, big girl

tuation

"People who are in love are often more sensitive to everything, and when they aren't with their lover they're apt to prefer being alone to focus on a mental construction of their lover."

http://www.vice.com/read/were-infatuated-with-the-ardorous

Suffer to Know

I studied Philosophy so that I would never find myself in a situation where I had based everything, thrown everything, and believed unfailingly in a truth, or a system of truths, that somehow I later learned I was illusioned about, that it is fact not true, not worth believing in.

Instead, I float around, searching for a truth that looks appealing and functional enough to set my feet down on. Which one will put into trance? Which one will succeed enough in casting its illusion over me so that I don't know the difference. Please just give me something solid to believe in, and undo in me the work, and the education that makes me constantly question, makes me find the flaws in every structure of truths. There are always unspoken assumptions and hidden value judgments. I don't want to be able to discern them anymore. 

Ironic, too that I just canceled my appointment to get 'aude sapere' tattooed on my upper arm.

The State of Things

World

Mind

I really do feel that to live in this society, I have to dumb myself down.

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