I Think We Weren't Supposed To Be Like This

I think we were supposed to be childhood friends, to swoop in and awkwardly save ourselves from ourselves then. Not 12 years ago. Not now. We are trying, and doing so much more damage than we can ever undo.

The worst part. The worst part. Is the damage isn't just to ourselves and each other. It's to our memories, our idealizations, our idealizations of love, and of each other,
are sustaining 

permanent 

damage.

We will never again have the idealizations of love that we once we did. We are tarnished in each others' memories. Forever.